[and the only prescriprion is more cowbell]


okey dokey well well. i'm a tid bit influenced at the momento amigo. hah. so so life has been rather lenient on me recently. gorgeous girl, no more LB [hopefully], and a lot of canniba sativa. fun fun fun fun.

So i've made my mind up that i'm gonna start out at a community college and get some general medical degrees before i decide to hop into a full big college. it'sll be more efficient bot emotionally and also financially.
well i think i'm gonna go pass ouut now.

i'm smiling really big right now. too bad you're missing it. lol

Current Mood: high

well well well. it seems to be so that life is rather splendid at the moment. I have a new chic who it seems is seriously rocking my socks right now. I just can't let go of those gothic beauties. Still at sicily's. Still waiting, in Anticipation, to leave the hell called LB and move to GP...

I'm mostly a myspace whore. becaue i can't figure out something to put into a journal everytime i get online every other 5 minutes.


SO, to my gorgeous Ashley. to all a goodnight. time to smoke and sleep.

Current Mood: ecstatic

okey okey. bored. haven't updated in a while. so so life is great. single again but not for long i think. but my hair, pierced my lip, and got contacts. oh and bout to go to a new school. life is changing so much. i'm a new person once again. i'm always chaging. every month. who doesn't.

Still vegetarian. three years this february. i'm learning hebrew this year and plan on going to NY and Israel for a senior trip. i'm 18 now and have to pay rent of 400 bucks. fucking lame if you ask me. I'm buddhist now and anti-messianic. fuck any 'holy-one' (BTW, buddhism isn't a religion, it's a way of life. so don't attack me for religious hippocracy, i know my shit.)

enuf for me. fuck off.

Current Mood: numb

Once again. Have waited months to update. Ok. Out of the 9 month relationship....the girl stalked me. Now i'm with Lulu. she is so amazing. She makes me really happy and has so many same interests...i don't know where to begin. Check her myspace if ya wanna. myspace.com/itslulubitch

And here is mine myspace.com/mssk8r04


Life is pretty well now. I'm about to be 18 and my parents are going to make me pay a ridiculus $300 a month. Bush-shit if you ask me. Yes still in my vegetarianism. Nearly 2 a year i think. If not then about 1 year and 8 months. Quit smoking, and am pretty much back to straight edge status. But i do drink on occasion. and i do Smoke salvia divinorum. but hey, it's all legal.

This is my last year as a child. Well, last 3 months. I have a lot of responsibility. I do understand that.

Current Mood: anxious

well, as usual, i'm bored. I have a term paper due today, but am taking a late grade tomorrow. I'm off of work now, and am able to drive. so idk what i'll do today.

I'm supposed to be doing work, but am instead updating this journal. so anyway, i may just watch a movie. Garden State to be exact. i hear from a pretty reliable [and cute] source that it is good, so i will do so. anyways, only 4 days of school left till summer!!


later

You Are Tofu

Okay, so you aren't exactly meat. And that's fine with you. Even if people think you're a bit bland. There's a good chance you're veg - and even if you aren't, you secretly think meat is gross.

Current Mood: mood, apathetic...j/k

Woo-hoo!! Exactly one week from tomorrow is the summertime! I'll probably work all summer, buuut I still will have the freedom from school.

So all has been well since the last month of me not updating. but i have nothing to say. bye.

Current Mood: Headache

Im just sitting in class. Listening to some Rock Kills Kid. Counting down the minutes till spring break starts. woo hoo. After school im going to Brad and shana's to hang out. I dont really know who will be there. but im just gonna hang out with the general company of the instance. Whether it may be a few cats, or a few people.

umm, so yea. I get my check today. That'll be cool i hope. Im getting a new cd to burn, a band called STARS. They are pretty cool Took some more pix yesterday. taht was fun. I need to retouch them though.

Current Mood: tired

I Hate it when people try to play off what exactly they are doing. This, teamed up with drama, is hell. EX. "Oh i'm not jealous, nor am I picky...[starts crying for no reason]". Life is not that fucking bad. You need to cry when your mom dies, or when you break your arm. NOT when someone states the true and obvious: you're a jealous, picky person who wants one person all to yourself and Doesn't at all want to risk losing him.

So you are jealous. You are picky. And if you don't watch out, you ARE going to lose him. You cant expect to be constantly up someone's ass, controlling their every actions by your threat of tears, and them just fall at your feet. You are no god. No more than George Bush.

He has tired of being your assplug whilst you prance along, pretending that nothing is wrong. While you control who he is friends with by using comments like: "I don't like her..." and "He gets on my nerves...".He can only take so much of your controlling his friends and sapping his time with standing around and spending "quality" time walking you to class.


Soon enough you will have payed your dues. And the tremendous fine will deffinately devour you. It will devour you like it devoured he when you controlled him so strongly and made choice of his friends and time management. When the only time he felt as if he were able to be free was when he was with other [real] friends not appointed by you. However, the damage may already have been done, as in that he still feels as if he should be wasting his time with you.

Congratulations. Your brainwashing has worked. He now has realized that no time is worth spending without you. Because of your controlling his time and friends. With you dragging him along with you everywhere, you have destroyed him. You have corrupted Man, gods greatest creation, by conditioning him to waste away with you and to not think for himself, but to make decisions which best gain more time to waste with you.

Are you proud that he can no longer take a day off of work to spend time for himself? That, by the new default you have set, he automatically devotes his [now pitiful] time to your pitiful life. You should be proud. No average man could do this without great difficulty. The only easy way is co-dependence.

Hug him constantly. Be up HIS ass. Spend so much time with him that he is obligated to do the same for you. Make him ashamed when he doesn't return the favour by calling you constantly and asking your days off so you can be together.Is this love? They both think it is. They both claim it to be.

How can one love another when she practically brainwashes him into being as co-dependent. HE doesn't choose HER friends. Nor does he try to control her. He just wanted an honest relationship with someone. But apparently, that isn't so easy.

Current Mood: mind controlling bitches....

Hey all. I found this new herb from Mexico called Salvia Divinoum. It officially kicks omnisexual anus. Last night i decided to..."meditate" with it. Afterward teh experience was sooo great, that i also decided to stoke a journal derived from it toO.
Just a reminder. this stuff is 100% [technically like 96%] legal. Only California and Louisiana have banned it.
Read more here:http://www.sagewisdom.org/
Or here:http://www.erowid.org/plants/salvia/
Get your own here: http://www.shamanic-extracts.com/xcart/customer/product.php?productid=16139&cat=248&page=1

Salvia Trip #1 3/30/06 11:40-12:14AM

11:40 - I get my ipod set to meditation music, turn off the lights, turn on this little soft blue light, and get a book of matches.

I light up a few crunched up leaves in my pipe. Hoping to get the full effect of Salvia. I take 3 big hits. I COMPLETELY fill my lungs and hold it in until i practically choke with needing more breath. Rather quickly, I begin to feel numb. I slowly melt to my bed as my skin feels cold and eventually absent.

Eventually I see a very bright figure approach. Im on the side of a mountain. I cant see the figure to be any thing, but in just know it was a girl.

She took me to this far out place, where there were floating faces with strobing eyes. After seeing the faces, I forget totally about the woman and never see her again. My surroundings were still rocky. But I was now aside of a large body of water. The faces were actually faces, just a set of floating eyes flashing with spirals randomly spinning in the socket, a nose, and a mouth of big red lips and white shiny teeth.

Soon I floated up this hill. I say floated because I don't recall ever walking. My body is numb, one with gravity.

On this hill was a large Temple or Church. This church had a glossy, ice like color balcony. On this balcony came a bunch of very round like cartoon figures. They dressed somewhat like the seven dwarves of Sleeping Beauty. They all were dancing in sequence merrily. Smiling and spinning around. I tried to make them go into the temple. But they just kept dancing.

Soon afterward, the effects were weakening and I decided to record my experience before I forgot it all. Even now I feel as if I have missed a few details...

12:14AM - I begin typing this. The effects linger with a slight light-headed feeling, but i mostly am back at home.

Current Mood: Bored

^{Has EVERYONE switched to myspace....}no one uses LJ n-e more...awww. Oh well. Well yeah i havent updated since September of 2005. That's 7 months. Someone who fucked around that time is 2 months away from a new bundle of hell!

But yea I got a honey too now. 7 months into the relationship. I love her very much. Im no longer a virgin. Im much more mature. And almost 1 year and 4 months into my vegetarianism.With saving average 95 lives a year, that's 3.7 lives per month. Anyway, just rambling now. so c-ya'll later!

Current Mood: Computer Programming

Hey yall. It's been a while. too bad the school didn get blown away. Right any way school has been awesome. I'm at Shaw high school in Columbus Ga. There are so many emo kids.. but anyway this school is so rich and a little more strict but it still is the best choice. But hope everyones well and didnt get killed in the hurricane.

well ttyl

Current Mood: busy

Yea it's like 10:00 or eleven or something like that and i am sofa king bored. All I'm doing is blaring the Pixies' Dig for fire, where is my mind, and a bunch more...I am about to change it to the Smiths: The queen is dead, unloveable, jack the ripper, everyday is like sunday.(all of these are my favorites, but the rest kick ass as well.) I start school monday so that will be... new. And my uncles loaded with an in ground pool and a few racing go karts so thats kinda cool.

But all in all I am not actually that home sick. Though I do miss Some people...(who are now 6 hours away insetead of 10.) I think it'll b ok. I hope this new school, Shaw High school, has all of the computer and art classes that i'm supposed to take at long beach. Not to mention the aneonean mount, psychology, and SAVE. And I wonder if i could still start that PETA club that was i hoping to stoke...curious.

well anyway 'night everyone.

(Cheer up Laura, it's not the end of the world yet. If I were there I'd give u a shoulder to cry on...XOXO)

Current Mood: thoughtful

Hey that hurricane was the shit. Now I'm goin to school in Columbus, Georgia. Yea cool. Umm just writing 4 the hell of it. Hey Laura.

Current Mood: stoned on life

I'm so fucking bored. All I am doing is work. Work. Work. Work. But besides that everythig is goin well. I gotta hot chic, a job, and an alright amount of happiness. That's all one needs.

But anyway.I can't wait to do something else fun. Well the blowout was kinda fun but it was no real life altering fun event. But i'll write l8er.

bye bye.

Current Mood: content

Hey things have been alright. I met another somebody finally. Shw's straight edge too which I tend to prefer. The funny thing is that I've known her since fifth grade and never once noticed her potential. but any was sorry I haven't wrote in a while. Been tied up working n junk but c ya.

YES! School's finally over. Maybe I'll have more fun over the summer besides working. Yea I'm finally over all of my misfortunes and stuff. So I can enjoy myself without incorporating knives and any sharp thing that can cut my skin. But anyway today WILL be better. i'll make sure of it.

Current Mood: yay

Yesterday was absolutely the worst day of my entire teenage years. I need not go into detail... but something I was very optimistic about totally went to shit. I can scream fuck only so many times into my pillow until it loses it's effect. but the only thing to do is get over it. If I linger on it too long it will totally destroy me. But I gotta totally awesome poem about it.

"You dont know what you've got until it's gone",
It's even worse when you know exactly,
Yet it goes anyway.

Instead of excessive neglect,
You show too much affection...
Which further drives you apart.

Instead of keeping the one you admire,
She goes and breaks your heart.

It's then you wish human nature
would for once curve it's ways.
That it cold ignore the fact that you
grow to love after 3 perfect days.

You can't even change your own judgements.
Don't even attempt at hers.
You'll only form a bitter hatred.
Instead of just departing words.

Don't attempt at pleading.
Don't say you can change.
You'll only prove to her and yourself:
How easily you go insane.

For it's times like this you can only look forward.
Just pray and hope for the best.
There's plenty of fishies in the world.
That can as easily soften your rest.

Current Mood: life sux

I'm jus sittin here in Mr.Bowerings room listening to Ramstein holding my nose and trying to type with one hand. They're having a party and all i smell is meat [gag!] some hot dogs and other proof of inhumane mutilation. Today should bee good. Me and Art are gonna fo to church and chill b-4 and afterward. but I gotta go the bell wrang.

Current Mood: gagging

Well my week has been great. Especially because I have a special girl around now [yay]. (I'm sorry for ur you know what. It's not my fault... Ok it is, i'm sucha horrible person : I ) But anyway, school sucks and I'm completely burnt out. I dont feel like doing all of the work the teachers decide to slam on us at the last minute. FUCK it all!!!

but summer is THREE days away!!! HAHA no more will I have to take all of the bitch-ass tachers bullshit!! More time to sleep! Relax!...Work :(

Current Mood: high on str8-eginess

Hey whats up. [particularly you, Art. XOXOXO]. Not SUPERBALLS!!!!!!!, BOUNCYBALLS!!!!. Yea... anyway...

Only one week left of school left!! But then i gotta get a job :(

Oh well bye.

Current Mood: flattered